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2009-07-11T12:39:00.004+08:00

see ya later, bub.

RP3 project was handed in yesterday, and it was disappointingly unsatisfying. now there's IMR to worry about, project and presentation. HAha. this will probably never end!

:D

2009-07-07T22:04:00.002+08:00

YOU PEOPLE MUST...
... FLOOD MY TAGBOARD!
thankew! :D
I'm talking to you silent readers! but I wouldn't know if there ARE any silent readers, because silent readers don't tag do they? but if they did, they wouldn't be silent readers huh! so what about, after you read this, say hi to me on MSN or something! I promise I'd maintain your anonymity. :) I'm really nice!

hahaaa, nonsense siolz. ignore that.

project deadlines are coming! stress stress. but, we'd be project free by August, thank God! and then, gonna find out where the people upstairs have placed me for SIP. but I know wherever I'll be, He has use for me there. in that I stand assured! :D same for school and all ba. though it's hard. hurhur. I rant. anyway, take care people! viruses in the air.

2009-07-04T12:21:00.002+08:00

I'm listening to The Fray. their music, super addictive yo! even if I can't really catch the lyrics. :x

yesterday, had the 3rd quarter corporate prayer meet. was super looking forward to it, since the 2nd quarter corporate prayer meet LOL. was ushering for the event, and thank God I was ushering for the front block of seats, much easier haha! then during praise and worship, saw this little kid, like 5 years old maximum, praising with more zeal than some of us. haha! when did we lose that excitement for God? wanna get it back. and to have thousands of people from different congregations, different walks of life, gathering to pray in one spirit, one voice... priceless! I'll be serving later again today, for tertiary service. everything'll be awesome!

blog!

2009-06-29T01:32:00.005+08:00

back!

for those who don't know yet, I changed my mobile number, here it is!: 96488868

yeah, so Chan's life has been super de uneventful and un-happening.
it's that time of the semester when everybody's life is only allowed to revolve around projects and deadlines and assignments (last-minute, I might add). LOADS OF FUN. hurhur.

amidst all that, I set aside some time on Thursday night to provide my wonderful nerdy voice for voice-acting, for the MM clip shown this past Saturday during service. first time doing anything like that, and it was harder than I'd thought! hard to get the emotion right, and even though I was reading from a script, I stumbled over my words and stuff. and since we couldn't find a quiet place to do the recording, we did it in this dusty storeroom behind the MM room. it was really hidden, but no medkits, pain pills, pipebombs or molotovs. just a lot of boxes and a lot of dust. but it was a really cool experience! thank God for all involved, who had to put up with me some!

oh, and the night before that, I visited the GV chalet. lots of wonderful people. I don't think I would even have considered going if it wasn't at Costa Sands! :x games, forfeits, some drinks, forfeits, no time for bed, forfeits. so, I've had more mouth-to-mouth contact with males than females in recent memory. disgusting. but everything aside from that was rather enjoyable LOL.

can't wait for ~~tomorrow~~ later, when we all get back to the daily grind. :) << fake smile HAHA

2009-06-19T11:32:00.001+08:00

I STILL HAVEN'T GOT MY SIM CARD FIXEDDDD. bah.

okay, you know what? I'm going right this instant.

Jesus may You receive the honour that You're due

2009-06-14T22:48:00.002+08:00

ARGH, die die also must blog! LOL. just a little update.

so TPG2 has undergone restructuring. ]: goodbye, Ben and David! you will both be sorely missed. but you'll get to watch by the sidelines as G2 experiences even more God-given growth and blessings! :D jiayou, where you'll be! I believe God can use you 们 even even more in Lemmuel's group, which I'll call Gx for now, because I don't know which division Lemmuel's group is. HAHA. but anyway, restructuring makes room for even more growth, thank God! great things are in store for TPG. [: fasting, praying, working, seeing, testifying.

still working, still miserable LOL. but watched some movies, finally. State Of Play is really good, if you're one to appreciate thrillers. watched it myself after work. [: used to think watching movies alone is one of the saddest things one could possibly do, but it really isn't all that bad. if anything, I got more of a kick out of it, LOL!

the next day, the CG watched The Taking Of Pelham 1 2 3 (I have no idea why there should be spaces between 1 and 2, and 2 and 3 in the name of the movie, but what the hey). rubbishy film, haha. but I really liked the acting of the two leads, John Travolta as the terrorist dude is hilarious!

then people started to disappear gradually, and in the end it was Mark and I on a man-date (YES YES YES I SAID IT! :D:D:D) and we watched Drag Me To Hell. it was hilarious, too bad I'm not a fan of horror. ><>

oh, and my SIM card blacked out on me. it just suddenly stopped working, and the "SingTel" was replaced by "Invalid SIM", wtshit HAHA. but it's quite... liberating? LOL. always wanted to experience life for a while without a phone, no calls, no texts to bug me. but I'm becoming unreachable, and I don't want that! ><>

so yesterday, we L4D-ed again and somewhere amidst the zombie-killing, I left my ez-link card with the others. so gotta experience life without an ez-link card too. double sighh.

higher than any other name

2009-05-24T02:22:00.003+08:00

Lord I lift Your name up high, higher

higher than all things upon the Earth

and Lord I lift Your name up high, higher

higher than all else

ESS has come and gone! though I didn't have my personal convert again, I think the experience of being on stage for the first time was MAJOR stretching for me! haha! scary man, I tell you. and wasn't experienced in handling a mic, and well yeah. grateful to everyone who shared their feedback and encouragements, etc! thank you! though I still can't differentiate the sarcasm from the sincere comments, laugh out loud out loud out loud out loud. and Meihwa said she received positive feedback from others regarding the drama, so I guess it was a success! ^^

it's Sunday, and I've nothing planned. want to stay home, plan schedule for my shepherd, etc. thank God for a day off!

livin' on a prayer

2009-05-21T18:02:00.002+08:00

Peanut, Butter, Banana! it's this Saturday. and I can't attend the last drama rehearsal. oh em geeeee. haha. but God really pulled through for me at the Mega Meet, so no reason not to fully fully fully rely on Him for this too. :) almost there.

God loves me loads I tell you. haha! on Tuesday had a class, how to follow-up on our new believers. and after that (it was already pretty late), David Junwei wanted to intro some super-duper chicken curry to me, but I -had- to turn it down because of the time, uhhuh. he told me I'd regret it.

so the guys went off, and found the shop closed! WHO'S REGRETTING NOW? HAHA. yeah. :) God loves meeeeeee. He's all mine! LOL.

I kind of drag my feet to school everyday now. such a chore, such a bore.

2009-05-19T01:45:00.002+08:00

Spirit of God, we cry out for You now

We cry out, where would we be without You, Jesus

Where would we be without You, Lord?

been an eventful few weeks! drama rehearsals, projects, meetings, ushers mega-meeting! thank God for giving me strength and fortitude, or I think I'd have broken down, or found excuses to miss certain things. but I realised that God is using me more and more, and if I'm faithful with little, I can be trusted with much! :D

haven't been working for two weeks, just too busy. don't know when/if I'd be going back. God permit, I'll find a better job soon. working at GV has become miserable miserable miserable. really really!

2009-05-12T00:11:00.002+08:00

happy belated mummy's day! I gave my mum the card, placed it next to her glasses while she was just waking up, so she'd find it. hahah. so sweet right me! buaytahan. :D

we had dinner at home, my dad cooked. cheap and good. ^^

2009-05-05T21:55:00.003+08:00

yes! I haven't abandoned this blog yet. HAHA. yeahh. been adjusting to school and all. the RMT tutors have been saying bad things about Benjamin Chan leh. HAHA! that I was very slack last sem, and whatever. it's really true man. people tend to be looking elsewhere when you're doing positive things. then they JUST HAPPEN to have their eye on you when you're, say, slacking.

it doesn't matter though. gonna try to do my best this sem! one last year to glorify God in my studies!

you know, I really envy those who are able to serve God alongside the rest of their family. it's really awesome yo! like I wish I had like a Dad who's older in faith, and can talk to me about deep spiritual things. I mean, I know he'd be there if I needed like say, relationship advice? or things like schoolwork and blah blah blah. but regarding the things that really count, I'll probably get scoffed at by the people closest to me. still praying hard for my family's salvation, because it's kinda sucky having to go it alone, with my family not being supportive of the one thing that means so much to me. :| if you read this, you're obliged to pray for me too. :D

2009-04-26T17:45:00.002+08:00

GOSH I'M SO SUPER TIRED IT'S UNBELIEVABLE.

worked on Friday, trained at Kono. full shift. making overpriced pizza for poor clueless customers. Smoked Beef Pepperoni is awesome stuff. Margarita is just absurd. the pizza-oven was incredibly hot. Parmesan smelled like vomit. lots of grated cheese on the floor. no milk in the coffee machine, coffee/milk came out black. Friday The 13th, didn't like what I saw. crazy people at floor. heavy Coke syrup cartons. miscommunications that yielded funny results. lots of dishes to wash. aching back. REALLY aching feet. long cab ride home. Tanjong Pagar, Aljunied, Bedok, then Pasir Ris (guess who stays at Pasir Ris). overall, a good day. :) reached home at 0230hrs. only got to sleep at 0300hrs.

Saturday. overslept for CLC1. got jacket from wonderful cousin Eugene. got purple tee. workers' meet. really really happy. God's really really real. crazy game. Ser Meng's awesome. didn't get a prize, just lots of laughs. oh yeah, and lots of birthdays. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EVERYONE. :) attempted to surprise Nel. Nel wasn't surprised. HAPPY BIRTHDAY NEL. :) lots of flying junk food. left for ushering. was complimented. ushers shorthanded. E20 and G20. doors opened. learned to handle latecomers. lots of latecomers. awesome praise and worship. Glorious Redeemer. holy communion. "you looks good when you smile!" carried "whiteboard" on stage. kept the jacket on, felt so hot hot hot sweltering hot. to live a life without intimidation, without limitation, without separation from God. no more intimidation, God is with me. :) "bye, see you next week!" chased people out of Nexus. debrief. Concorde. still felt so hot hot hot sweltering hot. great chat outside Dhoby station. L4D again. got pwned. 4N, home, sleep at 0215hrs.

today. didn't oversleep for CLC1. McDonald's breakfast. wrong bus for Joel. some laughs. cab to Jacob's place. barefoot, stepped on a splinter. pulled it out. some blood. some pain. restless class. nobody concentrated. learned some, refreshed a lot. thank God. :) rain. ran in it, got soaked in it. turned down offer to L4D again, didn't have the cash. thank God again. :)

no idea why I typed like that, anyway. HAHA. maybe it's more interesting to imagine a dull voice, doing commentary over scenes from these few days. :D

no class tomorrow. gotta love this sem.

2009-04-20T11:01:00.002+08:00

my jaw still aches. it's been a week now. what the heck is going on in there?

school has reopened! haha. I know I don't have classes ever, on Mondays. but have no idea about the other days now. TP's website isn't showing me any love. and it hasn't. ever.

exclamation mark!

2009-04-17T14:54:00.002+08:00

just starting Supernatural, the second season. awesome stuff! :D

school is reopening on Monday. I know some of my classmates-to-be, guess it'll be okay. I'd make resolutions to start studying harder and stuff, but I know that you know that I know that that may not happen. :)

desperately seeking part time work, somewhere near home. flexible hours and whatever. would anybody with anything give me something? I want out of GV so bad it's incredible.

God is good!

2009-04-12T23:40:00.003+08:00

I say, God really answers prayers man! :D

yesterday, found out that TP had passed the visitors goal of 50, with a God-blessed total of 53. was so inspiring, God really worked! praise Him! still, don't know how many of these 53 turned up for today's Easter Service, and how many decided in the end to cross the line of faith and recognise Jesus Christ as their personal Lord and Saviour, because I was ushering. ^^ first time ushering for combined service, was a bit stressful. people were difficult, everybody wanted the best seats for their group and stuff. was an awesome experience though! but anyway, from where I stood, I saw loads of people turning to Jesus for the first time, and it was simply breathtaking. felt such a joy in my heart seeing it! because I'm so sure, people need Jesus! oh yeah, and the short film was pretty well-made, and the testimony so moving. I really can't tahan seeing grown men cry I tell you. had to turn away when the guy's voice cracked. appreciate his and his wife's courage to share their testimony on stage, to bless others.

then we, the caregroup, watched Fast & Furious together.

really awesome opening 30 minutes or so, then... yawwwwwn.

oh, and I've become hooked on The Sims 2 again. hahah. it feels really good to play God with virtual people. :)

the way home

2009-04-07T23:42:00.005+08:00

The Way Home
April 12, 2009, 1500hrs
Suntec Convention Centre, Hall 603

this Easter, come discover how Jesus has changed so many lives, including mine, for the ever-so-much-better. contact me if you're interested, as I pray you are. :)

today, met the Ser Meng and the shepherd for morning QT, because the rest didn't turn up. the Rusty sent me to school in his flashy Mercedes-Benz SLK 200. THANK YOU! :D

then the Rusty and I went to Vivo to meet the Paw, who had this lengthy interview with the manager Andy. haha hopefully he'll be hired. another Pasir Ris dude to work with. ^^

then the Paw left, and the Rusty and I watched Gran Torino.

it's really surprisingly good. the story was gripping, and one can really feel for the characters' plight. again, those who think dramas are boring can sit this one out.

thanks Rusty for sending me home! hahah. jiayou, wherever you'll be, for the next month. the gahmen will return your soul soon enough. :)

then met the shepherd again for shepherding. I'm sorry if I haven't put enough effort into the harvest, and I promise I'll be a better support from now on.

I bathed like 3 times today, haha!

everyone overcome

2009-04-07T00:59:00.002+08:00

Jesus my heart must know
I'm pleasing to You

yoyoyoyoyoyoyo, yo!
Benjamin is going through a pruning period now. which means that while he is in considerable pain, he will eventually come out a greater man of God. all glory to Him!

2009-04-01T20:42:00.002+08:00

FINALLY went alternative-job-hunting yesterday around Pasir Ris with the Paw, accompanied by the Lionel. tried a few places, but only managed to make applications at New York, New York and Manhattan Fish Market. still, by the looks of things, we're not gonna be hired by anyone luh. times are hard. they only want to hire people willing to sell their souls to their restaurant, for the rest of their lives. so now (in desperation), the Paw may come to GV Vivo. which, coupled with the lack of luck in finding an alternative job, means that I can't resign anymore. -WEEPS-

time's really flying, 20 more days till school reopens, then back to the grind of school life. haven't even come within reach of learning drums. sighhh. haha. ONE DAY.

and the manager Nigel tried to pull an April Fool's prank on me. failed miserably. ^^ still, I'll be generous and give him points for effort. :PpP

2009-03-31T01:38:00.003+08:00

gaah I thought they needed help for the gala premiere, so I requested a night shift. in the end, I was given the finger in the form of an off day. -.- it's okay though, I got to attend Amanda Siah Mun Yong's and Sim Weiying's 19th birthday celebration. hahaa! it was nuts. really enjoyed myself. happy 19th, wonderful people!

just got directed to a post on Mr Paw's blog, and I really agree with this. ^{Proverbs 26:18-19
18} Like a madman shooting
firebrands or deadly arrows

¹⁹ is a man who deceives his neighbor
and says, “I was only joking!”

these verses talk about sarcasm. and it's so true, we sometimes hurl insults at others under the pretense of "only joking". we bring up their weak points in public to make the other party look worse, or to make yourself look better.

the article on SQ's post states that when sarcasm is allowed to dwell, friends can't feel free to be vulnerable. so friends compete against one another with their sarcasm, in a constantly intensifying game of one-upsmanship. and this sarcasm hides hurt hidden in someone, hurt that will lash out at the first opportunity it gets.

I promise I'll try to be less sarcastic!

2009-03-28T01:43:00.002+08:00

today, went to Marco's condo's function room for CG.
it was the second time using that room, but the comfortableness of the room still blew me away. using it doesn't even cost money lah.
and I thought Zhiyang's condo's function room was cool. haha. move aside, man. :x
was kinda dead during CG. really lethargic, as usual. not feeling too wonderful at the start, but felt much better after CG and prayer.
found out that ushers training class was also held there, haha! so convenient. :)
it was great lah, though a bit nervous at the start, didn't know what to expect.
and made a lot of nice new acquaintances.
looking forward to serving! next Saturday. :D

2009-03-26T22:35:00.002+08:00

I haven't fixed my lappie's 3 key yet. it's been like months, and I'm actually getting used to the fact that it's loose and all. sigh. procrastinate procrastinate procrastinate.

yesterday, had the most boring work shift in recent memory. you know it's boring when you find peeling and replacing stickers on boxes of nachos fun. business was soooo slow, I could disappear from the box office to help the candy bar for two hours without being called back. easy money though :D hahaha. speaking of which, my pay this month is puny. please sir, may I have more gruel? well, there goes my iPod Touch. thanks a lot.

then KC wanted to meet TPGuys. I turned up like half an hour late, and there wasn't much of the meeting left. but still, love to hang out at "Jacob's place". it meets most of your entertainment and fellowship needs. ^^

so for today, met Madeleine, Daniel and Desiree. had my first Sakura buffet. the food was stale. HAHA. then we proceeded on to our main agenda: to go to Haw Par Villa. so random right! LOL. anyway, it's this giant place which I suppose is meant to educate people (mainly tourists) on aspects of Buddhism. we planned to spend like a few hours there, but in the end there wasn't much to see lah. learned about the 18 levels of hell (laughs), which are divided among ten courts. essentially, dead people are judged at the first court, and they receive the appropriate punishments for misdeeds committed along the course of their lifetimes at the other courts. punishments like being frozen in ice blocks for ill-treating your elders, or being thrown into boiling oil for commited sexual crimes, having your tongue cut off for lying, and so on. I found myself thanking God for His grace, that He forgives me without hesitation when I repent... with a repentant heart. as I was saying, there wasn't much to see. the sun was being a jerk too, so we left in like an hour.

went to Vivo again, to check this week's roster and accompany the others for some shopping, etc. left them at about 1730 and saw TPGuys 3! at Vivo too! faithfully doing their surveys. so qiao. gave some playas some skin (hehee) and finally made my way home. took bus 65, for fun. reached home at about 1930. :x never gonna do that again.

fun day, and in a way, liberating. never going to walk down that path again. today just confirmed that in my mind. yay!

I pray for my mozzie bites to completely heal by tomorrow! CG and ushers training class. :D

2009-03-23T00:27:00.004+08:00

back from camp! really awesome 3 days and 2 nights with the awesome family of God, and the awesome God!

really grateful to the wonderful people who made the camp happen. and also the game masters, and so on. really appreciate the creativity and effort put into the games! if not for the weather we'd have played everything, but oh well.

the venue, Singapore Vision Farm @ CCK, is one of a kind. the "bunk" was a setup of bunk beds (without mattresses) stuffed under a giant tent, and just 3 fans were to provide moving air for the entire bunk. the "toilet" was just a container, where we showered under what were essentially running taps on the ceiling, and curtains were the only source of security. the toilets were beetle and flying ant and frog-infested. but thank God for this venue! for it really made me value what I took for granted: something soft to sleep on, lockable doors, SHOWER HEADS, and walls that block out the mosquitoes. the mosquitoes over there are true warriors; they won't cease attack till you literally slaughter them. and as usual, I was a feeding ground for them. racked up an impressive 50 bites (approx.) over 3 days and 2 nights. oot oot! mozzies love Benjamin.

the outdoor bunk was only for the guys though - the girls had air-conditioned (or at least indoor) dorms to sleep in. but thank God for them! they were willing to squeeze in one of the dorms so the other one could be vacated for the guys to occupy, so they wouldn't be attacked by mozzies anymore. still, one of my camp objectives was to "tough it out"... so I toughed it out. the bunk AND the shower. I survived! it was a really good experience... one I probably won't experience again till NS. and I showered like a new man when I got home. :) again, shower heads and doors are luxuries, ladies and gentlemen!

got to know some people better, got to know some new people, and learned a lot! God also guided me during the camp in solving a major issue. God felt my pain. He loves me. and for my sake, He had to force me to make a choice. I've made it, but the problem is far from over. gotta guard my heart, and keep focus. shepherd, pray for me! ^^,

John3sixteen: 60. God knows I want so much to be a part of this.

ultimately, wanna live my life with God in the centre. :)

2009-03-17T21:57:00.002+08:00

CAMP IS COMING. haven't started packing yet. haha! 3 days 2 nights, at the other side of the country. oh, and God's going too! :D whahah. gonna set objectives soon I hope.

I watched the ending of Coming Soon yesterday. actually, I listened to it, because I was either facing the curtains or hiding behind the backwall. HAHAHA. hey, it sounded scary to me. -.- the auntie cleaner (Weikiat's mummy) was like watching intently, her hands covering her mouth. she seemed to relish in the horror. HAHAHA. what poor lives the cleaners must live. they have to stay overnight at GV Vivo and everything. and they don't get to watch movies normally, they have to stay outside the hall till the movie's over. but I'm a nice guy, so I let them come in and watch the ending. ^^ lucky CH was there too! or I'd have waited outside the hall myself till the patrons stampede out the back door. oh, and I won't watch Tales of Despereaux. solely because of the hell it's given the floor staff. LOLsh. and I watched He's Just Not That Into You after work. with CH <- a guy. SO WRONG LOL. okay film only. Jennifer Aniston rocks. x"x and Hall 8 rocks.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE, I WANNA GET DOWN TO LEARNING DRUMS!

2009-03-14T11:37:00.000+08:00

I think I may have crushed myself. so conflicted.

2009-03-12T00:09:00.003+08:00

been having fun these few days. work work. and a lot of movies. HAHA. dunno why I'm so into movies. part of the fun is in hating movies people love, and loving movies people hate. :) we're all such critics, haha! I'm just a bigger critic than others.

anyway, watched Push with Jeremy, Terrence, Gwendolyn (sp) and Peiqi. not the usual gang, but still okay lah (MADELEINE!, movies without you just aren't as much fun, LOL). the movie was okay. a bit forgettable. and the Bleeders (people who can cause damage to whatever by screaming) look hilarious, HAHA! the whole cinema laughed whenever they screamed. looked like they were constipated! and Pushers are awesome. they place certain things in peoples' minds to act like memories, so it manipulates them into acting on the Pusher's wishes. hard to explain luh.

if these powers really existed, then Singapore would be chaos. because everyone'd use their powers for their own benefit. :)

OHMAGAWD. there's some bug in the room! ><

2009-03-09T21:17:00.003+08:00

! it's amazing how people keep forgetting to bring their brains with them when they watch movies. I'll stop recommending Watchmen to everyone. -.- it's NOT The Dark Knight, it's not a league of superheroes against an easily-distinguishable psychotic evil genius. it's a deeper darker story, one you WON'T get if you refuse to do any thinking. it's not perfect, few films are, but it's not AT ALL supposed to be boring.

anyway, for the unproductive brain, try Marley & Me. hahaha.

very easy to understand. -.- uh, and a bit moving. just a bit. (3 out of 5)

but enough of the movies already. next time I'll try to blog about something else LOL.

2009-03-05T22:20:00.004+08:00

watched Watchmen today!

it's 2 hours and 40 mins long! wasn't expecting. but it didn't have to be that long lah, since the first like two-thirds of the movie felt like an INTRODUCTION. only after that, it started to pick up. and everything else was amazingly good. unpredictable plot, detailed character development, a cliffhanger ending. that's what made the movie so, unbelievably, great. (4 out of 5)

and I want a mask like Rorschach's.

oh yeah!, saw the trailer for Coming Soon. it's a Thai horror film. you couldn't drag me to watch that, kicking and screaming. good grief.

2009-03-04T00:57:00.006+08:00

I'm blogging because my mouse failed. hahaha. and now I can't DotA with the guys. irritating. it's what you get for choosing cheap.

my sis screwed up my 3 key too. the key has sort of loosened and now it's bouncing all over the place. need to go to FORUM (siols!) to get it fixed. I gave tomorrow's 4-hour shift to somebody because it's not worth travelling for an hour plus to work 4 hours. fulfillment's worth more than 16 bucks, boys and girls. :) write that down.

so I could haul my lazy ass to town (where the heck is Forum?) to get my Vaio fixed tomorrow, but I don't wanna go alone, it'll seem so lonely and sad as hell.

I know this is so irrelevant for whoever's reading (thank you for reading), but hehe, I'm so bored and I just wanna type, and blog my thoughts.

take this scenario. X loves Y, but Y loves Z. Z doesn't seem like to like Y much though. hahaha. how sad is that. Y's a sad dude. sad sad sad. bugger that. see, that's why I don't blog much. because everything's made public. I can't even type names! hehe. protection of privacy lahhh.

I wanna watch Role Models! because it's starring Christopher Mintz-Plasse, the semi-retarded dude from Superbad, which I just (finally) finished watching. I want to watch The Wrestler too. and I will, even if I have to do it illegally.

sometimes I admire popular people. how's that for randomness. how's this whole post so far for randomness. :)

this random GUY sent me a sunflower on Superpoke. hehe. watch this space kids, see how THIS love story develops!

since we're on love, only God's love is perfect. people can claim all they want that they love each other, but they still fail. God's love has never failed me. it's has never failed you either. or you. or you. or YOU. yeahh. I have felt God's love (!) and I'm so scared to seek love from people now. because just as I'm at my lowest, tadah! no love to be found anywhere. haha. love exists! it just isn't reliable if it's conditional. e.g. I'll scratch your back if you scratch mine. once your scratching isn't helping anymore, I'll find somebody else who CAN help. I made the last sentence up, haha. but it makes sense.

why do people set criteria for their life partners anyway? sure, it serves as a guideline, but doesn't it always turn out that the person you fall in love with is totally not what you were expecting? haha. God has a way of surprising you, everytime. still, I know what I'd like. maturity. it attracts me. this probably means I'd spend my life with someone totally immature. haha!

should I put a tagboard up? haha. since I know that hardly anyone knows this blog and that I'd be super disappointed and dejected when nobody tags. see all my insecurities showing? praying to God to let me overcome these. hoho.

I thank God again for friends. because I have no idea what I'd do without them. thank God for God too, because He is all I want, and all I'll ever need. :D

I guess we'll never know. it'd have been great to have known though.

2009-03-02T20:41:00.002+08:00

went back to work on Sunday. wasn't as much fun as I was hoping, but was still pretty cool. haha... floor on Sunday morning kinda sucks, because of this church that holds its Sunday services at Hall 2 every week. no regard for authority at all! gaaah. their kids run everywhere, they exit from the entrance, blah blah blah blah BLAH. and lots of other patrons trying to beat the system, as usual. I got to watch a small bit of My Bloody Valentine, in 3D, which was already pretty wacky. I'd never watch the whole thing, ever. it's a slasher film like Saw, but toned down some. you get the ideaaaa.

then went to Jurong Point (! this damned place) with Lincoln, Maddie and Weiting. took an awfully long time to get there, and we essentially ate, walked around a little and then left. somehow survived the looooong trip home (Boon Lay to Pasir Ris siol!). HAHAHA. I won't be doing that again too soon.

yay for Joel who was water baptised this past Sunday! the old has gone, the new has come!

2009-02-27T22:57:00.000+08:00

Everything falls apart
even the people who never frown'll eventually break down
Everything has to end
you'll soon find we're out of time to watch it all unwind

happy first few days after exams! HAHA.

caregroup at Eighteen Chefs (YAY). for those who don't know what it is, click HERE.

cheese baked rice. extremely good stuff lah. and welcome Tsu Yan to our humble CG, hope you enjoy your stay. :)

these days

2009-02-26T17:44:00.000+08:00

There's no good in looking back on yesterday
and wondering what could have happened then

EXAMS ARE EVER YO! CAN YE FEEL THE JOY? :D

time to go back to work, have fun (at least guiltlessly) and NOT have to worry if I know all the design principles, or the components of Stock Management. -.-
eh. next thing I know, I'd be wishing for the hols to end heehee. the best part of the holidays is the first 3 weeks haha. then boredom kicks in.

maybe I should set holiday objectives?

2009-02-26T01:32:00.001+08:00

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